I am not living in this world (or shall I say I don’t live in this world). I don’t blame others, but I don’t know why I can’t bring myself to be serious. I am addicted to the internet. I’ve been into japanese dramas and jmusic lately.
I’ve just had a phone conversation with a friend and a classmate. I enjoyed it when it was with my friend, and it was awkward when I was talking to the classmate. I did it just because that’s what I had to do, that’s all. I was afraid of a misunderstanding if I didn’t call them.
I admit that I am an extremely lazy and irresponsible person. I am lying so easily, I don’t take anything seriously. I’ve been given a great opportunity, and I am spoiling it little by little (kotsu kotsu).
I want to disappear from this world, and when I come back, I want to have a peaceful life, in which I am not addicted to anything. The truth of the matter is, I can’t face any problem, and I prefer to forget about everything by watching videos, reading mangas and thinking about music. It’s hard to say that it makes the situation worse, but I can’t but go on like this. I have a little concern about my mother, but I am too selfish to do something about it. I don’t give a damn about my father, although, I feel that I am wrong sometimes. I don’t know wether my brother will succeed this year or not, and I think that his revision is not as organised as it should be. Anyway, I hate to say it, but I spent the weekend doing absolutely nothing. Tomorrow is monday, my teacher gave a great opportunity by allowing me to attend a certain meeting (it’s bothersome to talk about it, so I’ll leave it there).
How can I overcome my addiction. The truth to be known, I don’t have a strong will, and I find the virtual world I got myself into warm and exciting. I have to do something.
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